I like to go back into the past from time to time. To remember. Things, People . . Good and bad, doesn’t matter. Everything to me is an experience. I don’t have regrets about anything I have done in my life. I accept my past, decisions I took. I accept who I am now. When I am not happy about something I do (referring more to behavior, not about the material things) I change it without fear. I live the present and try not to think about the future so much, because I am aware that tomorrow might never come. I have Desires, Hopes and Faith. Courage and Love – lots of – for people that are part of my life, for the unknown, for animals, music, literature, flowers and rain. I tried for so many times to change people in good (like I ever had this right…). To give them from what I’ve learnt. That’s all I ever wanted to do. Sometimes, I admit I wanted them to be as me. But was I perfect? Definitely, no. Was I good and right? Definitely Yes! I realized that they do not listen. I’d not listen either. My mom used to tell us “No matter how bad I try to tell you to not go there because you’ll get hurt, you go. Go dears, go. But if get hurt, get hurt well. Suffer and remember my sayings.” Of course what she always wanted was to defend us. She couldn’t stand to see us suffering. Never! She was always there for us. She was mother, father, friend, everything you want. She gave us all the love and freedom. It’s exactly what I am now “love” and “freedom”. It’s exaclty what I like to share to the others. Some listen and do believe in my honesty. Some think I am fake. Well I accept that too – I read somewhere this: “I am not a Facebook status. You don’t have to like me”. It’s true. You can hate me. “If you hate me, I’ll always be in your mind. If you love me, I’ll always be in your heart”. So you decide. For your own peace, I recommend you to love me 😉 People should open thier heart more, allow the love to get in. For all this you need to train yourself. Every single day. You go to the gym to not get fat, to lose kilos or to mantain your body healthy. Right? You go to school to learn how to write and read. Once you finished school, once you are a mature person you decide who you want to be. Everything in life is about learning. I learn photography, so I can make better pictures. I learn to become a better person, yes. Why do you look at me like that? We must train ourselves, but only if we want! I can’t change you. But you can change yourself. A friend yesterday told me “I don’t have time to learn myself. Plus that why I’d want to learn my defects? I don’t want to know them.” I was a bit shocked by her attitude. By her ignorance. She isn’t happy with her life, with who she is. She judges a lot. She gossips and so on. Why? Because she has time to do it. But no time for herself. Ha! No time for wanting to know her defects, her imperfections and to accept them. “No time” said she. Excuses darling. But you know what, next time when you judge the others think twice. Think about you, about who you are. Think a little if you’re really content with You. YOU are important! Not the others. For that I sometimes go back in time. And I adore who I was. But I love more what I am now, as human being.
Photos taken in 2014 with my first compact camera. They, aren’t bad at all, are they?